I'm just gonna say that I hate the fact that I still care about this person. I utterly hate it.

Like i'm to the point where i honestly believe that i don't have feelings for him anymore. but this stupid caring thing gets in my way. It's stupid!

It makes me so mad, i can't believe i still care! I wish it would stop. I guess i'm just a good person, ya know ;)

Oh, i'm never having children. i babysit 3 boys, 3 months, 3 and 4.

they're little terrrors, but i lovee them :) but i smell like baby puke :(

grosssssssss.

I dread school tomorrow. I hate school. This is in like every blog i do, but it's the truth. I HATE IT. Butttt, i have softball tmorrow :) YAYAYAYAYAYYa.

Oh, btw, i have this friend & he's pretty great. & He gives awesome hugs :)

So squishy :)

Love & Rockets,

Liz

Never a dull moment.

Black Fridayyyyyy!

was the worst experience everrrrr! Not for the fact the crowds,

it was that I had NO SLEEP!

It was awful. I felt drunk after it was all over & how i'm still up, I really don't know.

On the bright sideeee :) I got a shirt from DeliAs*, Taylah's present, Victoria Secret stuff, and i ordered some boottttsss :)))))

SO HAPPY!

This picture is embarrassing, but I needed to emphasize the look of Black Friday.

My lovely boooots :) VVVVVVV

Love & Rockets,

Liz

"You have a little TWANG to your voice"

Blog timeeeeeeee :)

First things first, i'm finally happy! And i'm totally okay now :) i don't handle liars who can't distinguish between a lie and a truth, which is obviously what this certain person can't do. I honestly think it's humorous that this person can't even remember what they say! HA. you're MENTAL :) Enough about this, waste of my life.

SECONDLY, THANKSGIVING IS TOMORROW! :) :) :) :) :)

-i'm soooo thankful for my parents, mostly. they are there for me ANY time i need them! honestly, i'd be lost without them. they are my pride and joy, my rescuers, and anything else that needs to be said about them!

-i'm also verrrry thankful for my sister. i don't care what i say about her, she's an awesome person. i promise you, that girl will be there and have my back in anything. she's the best sister there is to have & i wouldn't trade her for anything in the world!

-i'm also thankful for my WONDERFUL friends! i don't know who i'd be without them. I may not have the most friends, but the few i do have, there the best. there's not really any to name but three: Jada Fox, Katie Brown, Mat Case. -- You three have been there through EVERY rough patch lately. You all have heard/seen me cry, helped me through my problems, sat in bathroom stalls with me while i sob my eyes out, go on late night IHOP trips, and support me through anything. I trust you 3 with my life, and oh so many more. So thank you, you guys really are the best.

-finally, i'm thankful for softball. without softball, i wouldn't be who i am. i'm me because of this sport, and it will NEVER change. It has kept me out of trouble for 7 years now, and it'll soon be 11 years :) i can't wait for MTSU :)

Third, i love my life! i'm sooooo happy that i'm done and have made my decision to be done forever. to move on and be the Bethany everyone knew a long time ago :)

Merry Thanksgiving :)

Love & Rockets,

Liz

it's just you and me, and a scholarship.

As of 2:08 pm on November 19, 2010, I am committed to begin my life at MTSU as a Lady Raider :) I'm so super excited, I don't even know what to say! :) I'm so ready for whatever they throw at me!

I CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS! :)

Go Blue Raiders :)

Be the change you want to see in the world.

There are days when I think maybe it's time to move on. Maybe it's time to get a new life, new friends, new everything. Then I remember, I can't do that. I haven't made a post in a while, and I thought maybe I should get some things off my chest.

First and foremost, I am no longer taken. I have never regretted anything in my life up until now. Everyone says I'll move on and get over it, but that's not the case. I've never been so attached to someone, so afraid to let go of someone. And now I seriously wish I had never become so attached. Everyday now, I think about what could have gone better to prevent this from happening. I need to learn things about myself that I really don't even know anymore. It's a sad story when you change completely and forget who you were. That's exactly how I've become. Maybe this was for the best, or maybe it will work out in the end. Who knows, only God.

Second, I HATE SCHOOL. GAHHHH I'm so ready to get out of there. It's one big hole that sucks you in and you can't get out. It's terrible. I (hopefully, cross your fingers) will be attending MTSU. I really hope I do! I love that school and I'd love going there. Not too far from home, but just far enough to get away from my old life and start a new one.

Third, I'm ready for Christmas :) It makes me happppppy! I'm ready for snow, I'm ready for something new!

Maybe I'm just ready for a change. Everything looks so old to me now, so burnt out, so tired. I just need a change.